Secrets - My Mind, Myself & I

So help me God to fall asleep at night 'Cause every night feels like I'm losing a fistfight I'm gone, feels like there's something wrong 'Cause I can't escape from these prison walls That I've built myself If you can hear me, can you please come free me? Time, feels like I have none left Can you check my pulse, if it's beating? Sometimes I feel like I'm heading in the right direction, then I turn I knew that it was too good to be true 'cause I've learned That suffering lasts forever It always takes me in, it pulls me under farther Does everybody else just walk on water? Breathing in and breathing out, I suffer So help me God, can I recover? It's so tough to get up these days There's nowhere to go when your mind's a cage I'm stuck treading water, slowly drowning in this pain Can't seem to get much sleep When I close my eyes, I just overthink About everything I've done and will do Am I born to lose? Immobilized, I'm petrified I can't run and I can't hide Am I paralyzed? Is this my life? Anxiety has got the best of me tonight Feels like I can't unwind My chest restricted and tight It's like I've lost all sight All darkness without a sign of light I guess I'm stuck here waiting for anything It's so tough to get up these days There's nowhere to go when your mind's a cage I'm stuck treading water, slowly drowning in this pain Can't seem to get much sleep When I close my eyes, I just overthink About everything I've done and will do Am I born to lose? I can't run, I can't hide I guess I gotta just stand and fight tonight I'm stuck in a cycle, it's repeating Help me out of this hole, I can't keep bleeding